Today was extremely long. I woke up at 4:45, talked to linds who coincidentally was awake, sent a few messages back and forth to ryc, and then showered and left my house.

I was supposed to meet Becca at her house but she wasn’t answering my calls, so I went to work and sat at the desk with Mollie until 10. I met Becca for breakfast, had eggs and toast. We started walking to our k-8 school but realized we had 45 mins to kill, so walked upstreet. I ended up buying two pairs of sunglasses. We walked to Seeds, I said hi and bye to lots of my middle school teachers who I dearly loved for about a half hour. After, I walked to Mollies and we went and picked up Andrew, Brooke, Bryan and Cristina. Four people in the backseat… then we got Devaughn. It was so so illegal but so so hilarious.

Camp was long. I’m not used to seven hour days in sun like that, and it wasn’t even that sunny. We got our units (I am so unhappy with mine and may quit if I can’t switch) and I’m not excited about camp at all anymore. We had a cookout in the woods and made pizza bagels? Usually we have hot dogs, but okay whatever. It was ridiculously long.

We decided not to go to dinner for whatever reason but we ended up getting anytizers at Target and ate/made them at Mollie’s. We watched the first twenty or so minutes of Zach and Whoever Make a Porno and laughed ridiculously at how Seth Rogan’s character is “more Josh than Josh is.” Yeah, Josh is that guy.

Mollie brought me home and now I’m super tired.

Other points about today.

• When you really don’t like someone but all of your friends really like that person but they don’t like you either and there’s nothing you can do about it and they’re at all of your events, etc. and you just want to die because they take the fun out of everything for you and there’s nothing you can do about it.
• When you can tell that someone really, really likes you but you really, really don’t like them as more than a work friend and you don’t know what to do with your life.
• When you die coming out of the million mile uphill walk out of the woods.
• When you want to die because you can’t be with first graders all summer because you work with them year-round and if you don’t have at least third-fifth graders you will die and probably quit camp.
• When you hate camp in general because you were so excited and now you dont ever want to go back.

This has been an extremely incompetent post because I’ve been up for twenty hours and you have camp the next morning.

I’ll fill more in when I’m more competent.

6/11/11

Saturday, June, 6th, 2011

Today I graduated from high school. I didn’t go to my graduation ceremony. Instead, I stayed home. I didn’t do much today, mostly slept and watched The OC.

A lot has happened in the last three months since I’ve blogged here.

This past week I worked in-house days from 7:30-4:30, which is crazy. I overdid myself. Came home Friday night, went to sleep right away, and didn’t wake up until 9:45 the next morning.

Tomorrow I’m going camp shopping. I need shoes, shorts, tshirts, bathing suits, and sports bras. Not to mention nice summer clothes.

Monday I’m going to the zoo. Tuesday I’m going to the water park, working only a few hours, and then going to orientation later that day with Mollie. Wednesday through Friday I have orientation, Saturday Derek and I will hopefully go to the park and picnic at midnight, Parent day is Sunday + Seth’s Grad party, then Monday starts camp. Everything is going so fast.

I’ll probably post again a little later because I have some things to get off of my chest.

2/10

Thursday, February, 4th, 2011

I have to be at work in an hour and forty two minutes. Somehow I’m kind of getting somewhat better at mental math, which I am okay with.

I have another cold and it isn’t too bad and I’m quite grateful. It’s kind of almost the same as the cold I had one and a half weeks ago which is great.

I learned why J got fired which is crazy to me. Apparently he had a relationship going on with a coworker and someone higher up found out and he got the boot. That sucks.

There’s this guy that comes in on Wednesdays, maybe some other days but I only see him on Wednesdays and he’s really cute and I can tell he’s ~indie which is GREAT because we don’t have enough of those people around here. I just would really like to get to know him but I’m too shy to start up a conversation with him. The closest I got was talking to a kid who was near him. I’m such a pansy.

There is some obvious sexual tension going on and it’s bothering me a lot, it really is.

I think I’m going to ask Ellie about being her family’s new nanny starting in April because their current one will be leaving. I think I can handle the two kids; they’re not bad and they both listen very well. I like them a lot! I just really enjoy working with kids.

I still haven’t emailed Lize about working at camp this summer which is definitely something that I need to work on. It’s just… I’m not sure that working at camp is what I want to do for sure, you know? I’d love to tour. Oh, how I’d love to tour.

I’m seeing Jimmy in less than two weeks and I’m incredibly excited but moreso nervous. He makes me nervous. So, so nervous.

Michael and I have been joking around a lot more than normal and this is definitely something that I could get used to.

Jenny has been so incredibly nice to me lately. She complimented my hair a few months ago, always smiles at me, says hello, and is just nice all around. I don’t know what changed in the past however many years, but I’m glad she likes me! This is all so weird to me.

2/2

Wednesday, February, 3nd, 2011

Things have been pretty okay lately.

I had a common cold two weeks ago and it really wasn’t that bad. Usually I get somewhat hard so I was really thankful for that.

I’m currently listening to Nirvana. I think they’re my new music fix for right now.

Yesterday was so-so. I was supposed to go in at eight but the roads were bad and I didn’t get in until 9:30. I bought J@@@ym a bagel and got myself one, too. I was so tired because I hardly slept and was skyping and it was a bad decision. I crashed by seven. I also ate a doubledahn for dinner and my mo thinks that’s why I feel like such shit today.

I don’t know why but I just do not feel well at all. I’m not a fan.

I got a film camera! I’m so excited! Someone that I work with gave me two rolls of black and white film that I’m so incredibly excited about! I can’t wait to use them. They have to be developed at Ritz though. :/

Yesterday Michael and I had a really wonderful conversation and it was so great. That doesn’t happen enough at all and I’m really glad it did. Summmmmmmmmmer.

“i had unprotected sex with antoine dodson because he paid me to”

I was so proud of myself.

Monday, January, 1th, 2011

I got finished “webcamming” with my new friend, James, a little bit ago. It was cool, but it kind of felt like there was an elephant in the room or something. We had pretty decent conversation. We covered phones, apple, internet explorer, movies, facebook, pop culture, and I’m sure some more things. Boys really like giving me suggestions of movies/videos/music/etc. to look up later. I swear. He seems really cool though! I definitely enjoyed myself.

On Tuesday I skyped with Rock. Lololol that was fun. I felt kind of weird though? I’m not sure.

I plan on skyping with Dildo soon! I think that’ll be pretty fun.

So0oo0o0o many boys. Trolololol.

I think that it’s actually happening though; I’m going to Booz. Yeah! Stoked as hell.

Michael got a position that I’m really proud of him for and ugh I really like him.

I’ve been talking to my dad a little more recently. I still haven’t seen him since Thanksgiving though. It’s kind of whatever. I’ve talked to him here and there, but I usually wait for him to call me. I think that helps get the point across that I actually am pissed at what he did and I’m not going to put up with it.

I don’t know what I’m going to do about college. I want to go to either P or B and ahhhh it’s stressful.

Josh got fired.

J@ym told me that I was one of her favorite bus monitors over the summer, and then when she was on the phone with Lize and said something about me working a birthday and being fabulous. :’) :’)